Worship

I’m trying to learn that it’s okay to not always have the “emotions” of worship. I don’t know why that’s a hard concept for me, but it’s always when I don’t “feel” it, that I start to doubt. If I am truly thankful for Jesus, if I am truly moved by the story of the Cross, why are my emotions so…leveled?

What is worship? Can it be worship if I’m not shedding tears? How can I tell the difference between worship without the feelings, and just having a calloused heart??

It has been helpful to remember that not having the feelings doesn’t equate to not believing, or that the Truth is any less real. Thinking of testimonies of answered prayers and God’s grace in my life, and I am reminded that God is faithful. God is good. God is working in mysterious and miraculous ways. God is love. God is beyond what I can comprehend. God is worthy of my praise. Trying to use my brain muscles instead of fully depending on the highly emotional moments.

Last night, P.Min said to always ask ourselves this: Do I really love Jesus, now?

Maybe this is what it all comes down to, feelings or not.

It’s Good Friday!